Worried; I dont know what your faith is, but I have a strong Faith in Jesus! This may sound funny being here I am on here going from forum to forum. But every day, sometimes 10x a day or more I call on him either just to thank him for something of my past, or something that I cant see yet but know that He has in store for me, or alot of the times to call on Him for strength. There is NO WAY i could of made it thru my sons death without Jesus. I cant even tell you what it was like during that time and I know that Jesus just picked me up and carried me cause for so long I was so out of it. So I know if He can take me thru that, he can take me thru this. BUT, of course satan is always lurking around to say hahahahah, if Jesus was this or Jesus was that then YOU wouldnt be feeling like you are". But I know I give the devil too much credit to work with because I get so weak, so scared that I cant fight it and I give in to the fears. I have went back and forth in my head with Can I be healed of this with enough faith and works on my own? OR is a chemical imbalance that only time and medication can take care of???
Those are just MY feelings and not meant to preach towards anyone else, just My beliefs and feelings. I feel like God is trying to help me but IM not mentally working hard enough to drive out the bad thoughts, the negative thoughts in order to let any GOOD in. Its like I get stuck on this wheel or despair. And of course when things are Good for a few days or a week, I feel so Free and I want to believe its all over forever, but it comes back.