Hey guys. I was diagnosed with OCD several years ago and am being treated on an antidepressant, a less common one known as Luvox. It seems to work the best for me personally, but that's not why I am here. I have two states I go into when my body needs sleep. The first is when I feel tired, that exhausted feeling that you could just lay down and fall asleep in two minutes. The other state is when I stay up very very late, and am not really that tired, but I am experiencing symptoms of brain fatigue and my eyes begin to glaze etc. It is during this second state that I get very persistent completely random thoughts that protrude my mind when I lay down to go to sleep. I'll be laying there, and all of a sudden a song pops into my head and ill find myself tapping a part of my body to it, or i'll "hear" a voice say a random phrase like "Yeah I dont know" or "Thats what he did!". Obviously these "voices" have no context and when I "hear" them, I find my logical brain saying "What the heck was that??". I feel I should say that by "voices" and "hearing", I mean the kind of voice you hear in your head when you imagine someone speaking. I'm not talking about literally hearing as if I would by a sound source. But it might as well be, since a part of my brain is sending this perceived thought into my head. Once I hear the voice and am trying to reason why that popped into my head, I get no more intrusions. It's like when my rational/concious mind it active, I dominate this obnoxious part of my brain. But as soon as try to sleep and rest my mind, the thoughts come flooding back.
As a strange analogy to my symptoms, I'll explain it this way. I often feel like there is this part of my brain that is locked up all day, when the logical/rational part of my brain has enough energy. It is constantly being subdued and put into check. But when my brain gets tired after staying up really late but not feeling too tired(state 2), my rational brain no longer has enough energy to silence the obnoxious, loud, random part of my brain. So when im laying there, I am under siege by constant strange thoughts flooding my head.
Does anyone else have any experience with this? Is it normal, or another symptom of OCD? I don't have suicidal thoughts or thoughts of killing or hurting anyone, its just these random thoughts at night. Thanks very much for taking the time to read this!