I had a panic attack last night after going weeks without one. I take cipralex to control them and it works pretty good, but I've found when do have one it's bad. Over the last week I've been delving into some pretty scary stuff in therapy, but it's good. I have to start picking at that knot causing my PTSD if I ever hope to get better. So I had a good session yesterday (first one ever that I haven't cried in!) and was feeling okay about things. Then as I was getting ready for bed, the panic attack hit. I feel nauseous, light headed and dizzy. I get like a weird electrical charge hit every nerve in my body and I even drool (gross, I know). I feel like I'm going to die.
Now I have that panic attack hangover. I slept terrible, all my limbs are heavy, I'm still bit sick to my stomach... I'm sort of spaced out. I know this is all normal for me and it's not freaking me out or anything. I guess I'm just disappointed I had a panic attack at all. I hate, hate, hate the two days it takes for me to recover. I can't go exercise like I normally do because of my broken ankle. And I don't want to replay the events that lead up to it. It's very difficult to discuss my abuse and I don't want to go there without my therapist to guide me through that mess.
So I guess all I really want is to vent (which I'm doing) and get some support from you all.