im scared of hiv and I feel like this is why my teeth are having so many problems
Our teeth (dental health) are just like any other "issue" we have when we are struggling with anxiety. What we see in our anxious minds is, often, not as bad as we think. Or, at least, it will not cause the worst case scenarios we are envisioning in our minds.
To me, a major precipitating fear in all of this is your HIV fear. This has been a persistent fear for you for some time, if I recall.
Have you had any further thoughts as to an HIV test? Our dominate fear keeps us from seeing a possible helping force in taking an action, sometimes. So through avoidance we can feel we are "protecting" ourselves from what we really fear. Trouble is our fears are, most often, not based in much reason, when we struggle with anxiety. It can be quite a cycle of fear - I understand. But, there are ways to help ourselves. And, pushing through fears to get some things done and to, hopefully, make some fear alleviate is a must. The fears tend to not subside much (or stay subsided long) until we can find the strength to move forward and get something done DESPITE our fear. RARELY does solace come in reverse order. If we keep waiting for us to act (just continuing thinking
about doing something), we are gonna keep on waiting for our fears to subside, too. The cycles repeat. And repeat. And repeat.
There is always help and hope:)
Peace and Feel Well:)