So for about a week and a half, I have had a blocked right ear. I can still hear out of it, it's just muffled and feels like there's a bit of pressure there with the tiniest bit of a dull ache. I saw my doctor twice to make sure it wasn't an infection, and she said it was eustachian tube dysfunction. How long can this last?
I am extremely sensitive to any odd bodily sensations, particularly when it comes to my ears. They are constantly the root of my health anxiety...I went through a period for a few months a few years ago where I was getting tinnitus symptoms and had some hearing loss in my right ear. Eventually it came back, but not after agonizing anxiety. Then earlier this year, in my same ear, I got a pretty nasty infection which sparked my anxiety again and I was off work for six weeks. I hate it. Hate it hate it. My doctor and therapist tell me that it can't hurt me, my hearing will come back to normal, and that I have to keep busy and either try to ignore it (GP) or get used to it so it's not so frightening to me (therapist).
The problem is that I can't ignore it. I don't want to accept it. I just want it to go away. I keep thinking in my head why me, what did I do, when will this end, please go away, I can't deal with this, nobody understands. I know it's just a blocked ear, and there are millions of people with actual diseases so much worse than this but I just can't relax about it. I can't function properly. For a stupid blocked ear. Which of course makes me feel even more the freak I already feel I am.
Is there anyone who has felt this? Had ETD which has actually gone away? Any thoughts at all? In tears right now...