I took Remeron for about six years and at one point I decided to go off it and try life without medication. I too, took ativan on an as needed basis. I only used the ativan when I was in a particularly stressful situation which in my life at that time was pretty often. I made the decision to go off without discussing it with my doctor and stupidly, reduced too quickly. Needless to say, after two weeks, I caved and went back on Remeron swearing that I would never go off it again. Two years later, after moving into a new place and having a lot of family health problems along with the stress of moving and a whole lot of other "stuff" going on in my life, I realized that I was having to take the ativan more frequently and that made me think, why am I taking Remeron for GAD and panic when it is the ativan that is really what is helping me. This time, I went off the Remeron extremely slowly. It is a great drug but after six years, I realized that it probably wasn't doing as much good as the ativan.
Even going off really slowly was difficult for me. At first, I felt pretty good, but as I got closer to ending it, I started having a few panic attacks. None the less, I still felt overall better, like my spirit was lifted. I felt more emotion, happy and sad, and everything in between. I'm being really candid here and remember these feelings are personal. Just because this is what happened to me doesn't mean it could happen to you. By the time I was completely off medication (Remeron), I started feeling nausea and flu-like symptoms that lasted for at least a month. I could eat nothing but the BRAT diet. Diarrhea, aches and nausea were constants and I started suffering from more headaches. Sleep became a constant problem, but that is when I really used the ativan. I limited the ativan to only when I absolutely needed it. In time, and the loss of 30 lbs., I was able to eat other foods without feeling like throwing up. The aches went away and I still felt happy even though I was still getting the odd panic attack. The biggest problem was the sleep. The headaches were a problem too, but that is something I have struggled with for years so I can't really count that as being a part of this. Anyway, I realized that I was starting to take more ativan than I was comfortable with, so I talked with my doctor and we decided that because I had in the past tried many SSRIs and practically every other medication one uses for GAD and panic with little or no positive results, I was better off staying on a benzo, but a long acting benzo, clonazepam. I had been off Remeron for six months by the time I made the decision to switch from ativan that I was starting to take increasingly and go to a long acting benzo that I wouldn't increase once I found my appropriate dose. I haven't changed my dose in the almost three years that I have been on it.
I understand you wanting to go off medication and that is exactly what my plan was too. I hope you do have success with that, but if you do decide that you find it too tough or that you life becomes restrictive just because you want to be medication free, then revisit your options. Someone on here suggested Buspar. Who knows, that may be a good drug for you if you need something but don't just start taking something because you think one is better than another regarding "addiction".
All medication needs to be taken with caution. I find it interesting that many people worry about the additive properties of benzos when no one thinks that SSRIs or SNRIs or any other medication is not addictive. You have to wean off all medication if taken for a long period of time. Plus, not all benzos are created equal. Misuse of short acting benzos is what gives all benzos a bad rap. A long acting one like clonazepam (klonopin) or Valium, these are long acting benzos and once taken on a daily basis, and the appropriate dose is found, most people don't ever have to up the meds as one would have to do if they stayed on a short acting benzo like lorazepam (ativan), Xanax, etc.
I still carry ativan (sublingual type) with me just in case of a panic attack. I can just slip one under my tongue and with in a couple of minutes it takes effect. Frankly, I haven't used an ativan for that purpose in months. I have used one on occasion when I have had a migraine for many days and advil hasn't done it's job. I would then take an ativan before bed and in the morning my migraine would be gone. I only use it when I've been through three days of headache, not before.
Anyway, as I said, if you can get off of Remeron and forget about taking the Prozac, good on you. BUT, don't feel like you have failed or be disappointed if you do need medication. It is better to be on medication and have a life than to be able to say that you aren't on medication, but never leave your house out of fear. Some of us just don't have the chemical make up that others have who can go through life without taking some sort of medication whether it be for a mental health issue or some other problem. There is no shame in taking medication when it can help you live a good life.
No matter what you decide, ALWAYS discuss it with your doctor and then make an educated decision.