I'm not sure I completely follow. Please do post your thoughts; I'm open to just about anything.
I was simply thanking Marc and Sixpack for their notes. Marc's typically efficient brevity of words, combined with Sixpack's familial certitude, made me grin. It was a moment's relief.
It's not as if the anxiety has simply vanished or that I feel better. The CT scan has been looming for six months and the tension has been a steady build-up; the idea of it always there in the back of my mind, even when no physical symptoms were present.
Thankfully, they squeezed me in today, rather than having to wait till tomorrow morning. The wait begins.
I get your point, however, about the reassurance cycle. The difficult thing for me with HA is that these have all been tangible and measurable things.
And trust me, self-awareness, and introspection aren't exactly weak points here. That part of my psyche is nearly sacrosanct. :)