I've posted a few topics on this board within the last 6 months or so and everyone has been so helpful and supportive. I've had OCD thoughts mixed with HA and have thought within these months I had everything from schizophrenia to alzheimer's disease. I won't get into any of my supposed symptoms because really, it's irrelevent. I'd decided to try CBT therapy without the use of medication and can't tell right now if I've just finally gone off the deep end or am actually starting to get better...it feels liberating and frightening at the same time. I don't feel 100% healed by any means but, I do feel as though my thoughts are not as intrusive and bothersome as they once were. I should be happy about this. I instead am wondering if a brain tumor has made my OCD go away and now I'm just dealing with the symptoms of a celebral tumor. The thing is, these thoughts come, and deep in my sub-concious they bother me but, they are not debilitating in any way whatsoever. I almost don't care. I still have some feelings of depersonalization but I think and hope within time and continued CBT, I can learn once again how to reconnect with myself and my family. My question is, has anyone ever tried CBT and felt as though they had a breakthrough? It's been slow and subtle for me, but I feel like I can finally beat this thing, so long as it's not actually a brain disease making my OCD go away :) Also, there are feelings of sadness and despair, almost like I've lost a part of myself. An old friend or something. I don't quite know who I would be without my OCD. Anyone who's ever had their OCD go into remission, have you experienced similar feelings/thoughts? I'd really appreciate the input. Thanks and God Bless.