I want to thank everyone who has contributed to this post. I can't say I'm constantly convinced i have MS. Sometimes my logical reasoning kicks in and I'm almost sure it's all just anxiety. Reading about people with similar symptoms and not having MS is so relieving! Even reading about people who do have MS, but hardly notice it is reassuring. Our brain is incredibly strong and can cause a lot of physical and mental problems. I guess this is what freaks me out the most.
One thought that's very helpfull to me; I'm sure that 99,9% of you is sure they have an anxiety disorder. You wouldn't be on this forum otherwise. It's proven that anxiety can cause all kinds of symptoms, often very real and frightening. These are all just facts and so far, can be applied to every single one of us. You KNOW you are overly anxious and you KNOW the symptoms you are experiencing are common physical symptoms caused by anxiety. Right? Just take one moment now to think about the chance you have MS. This chance is very, very small. It's a rare disease. And do you know what would be even more unlikely? You having MS AND an anxiety disorder! I hope this makes sense to some of you, it does to me.
Another thing which reassures me i don't have MS is something my doctor said, it's a kind of 'thumb rule': "The more (different) physical complaints you have, the more likely it is you do NOT have a serious illness." Most diseases, especially like MS, are characterized by very serious, but fairly few symptoms.
I'm just like most of you. Even as I write this stuff, part of my brain tells me there's definitely something wrong and that I DO have MS... But everything I just typed is true. It's the constant doubt. Doubting yourselve, mainly, but also doubting your doctor. I have an appointment scheduled with a neurologist (1st time) next week. I'm terrified but also excited (weird, eh?) to finally addressing my biggest fear.
Just hang in there folks, I know it's hard, but I try the same.