I'm Matt and completely new to this. Basically recently I have really not been feeling myself and very, very anxious and can't quite pin down why.
I have always had a very philosophical mind, and I would say that I am a humanist and I have never had any anxiety about this but lately I seem to be reflecting on life a lot more than what is probably healthy for me.
I study French and Spanish at university so have been abroad for a year. Upon returning back to The UK I have had both strong experiences of depersonalisation and derealisation. For example, when I have met up with friends I can still socially engage but half of me feels like I am on the outside and when I am talking about my experiences half the time I think 'did this really happen to me?!' Even though I know it did. Furthermore, when I returned to UK my parents don't live where I grew up - they now live in a rural area that I can't relate to. Upon seeing countryside vistas and the ocean, instead of feeling awe I freak out and just can't seem to relate to the world around me.
I am doing my best to cope - making sure I exercise, get fresh air and eat, although I have lost my appetite. I don't know whether having a humanity kind of mind vs having a scientific one affects things. My outlook on the world is constantly changing as I grow...I used to see the world pretty subjectively whereas now I am starting to see it more objectively and maybe this is why I am freaking out.
I guess I am posting because I want someone to relate or something. I hope I snap out of it soon, I have never had anxiety like this before, and whilst I am ensuring that I continue to be social etc inside I am really struggling.