Hi poppadr3w- I am on Wellbutrin XL + Lexapro and I do feel jittery on some days. It is unpleasant but to me it feels less like anxiety and more like too much coffee. When I feel like that, it's better if I have something like work to distract me or else I do start to focus on it. But I am only 4 weeks into adding in Wellbutrin so I feel there are still more start up effects to go through.
How did the wedding go? I will share with you that I have made the mistake of drinking too much while taking Klonopin. It's not that I ever do it intentionally but we all can get into social situations where everyone is drinking a lot and before I know it, I have had way too much. If I mix alcohol and Klonopin, I lose my motor skills, get the hiccups, maybe blackout and generally make a complete ass out of myself. (Yes that all happened once years ago, thank goodness someone helped me home! Totally embarrassing). So just be very careful mixing Xanax with alcohol. Currently if I am going into a social situation where I feel uncomfortable I make a conscious decision to take a Klonopin and no alcohol or no Klonopin and it's okay to have a few drinks. But not both, too risky for me.
Sorry for the delay. Yeah, the jitters are weird. They feel like caffeine jitters without the energy at times, but it'll lead to anxiety at times. They have gotten better, but they tend to come and go. I'm on week... 5, yeah 5 as of today, so I still have room for improvement.
The wedding was quite fun, actually. I was highly anxious about going - I'll admit it. But I knew that I'd regret not going because a ton of my family was there. At first I was anxious walking through the door, then I was fine during the ceremony, but then came time for cocktail hour and mingling. I think I was more anxious about drinking alcohol than the whole situation, honestly. But I got a small rum and coke, as wedding venues will do, and picked away at food. Then my cousin asked me if I wanted another drink later in the hour, so I said alright since they were small.
In the actual room where the dance floor was we had a champagne toast (Half of a glass) and it was going OK. I decided to get another rum and coke, when my cousin (Drunk bridesmaid) ran over and told him to make it a double. No one really knows about my anxiety in the family. Well, a few people do, but I don't think she does. I shrugged and took it since I wasn't driving and I had been eating. Later another drunk person came over and asked me and my fiancee what we were drinking (We thought out of curiosity)... and he came back with drinks for us. That one actually spilled a bit (Not my fault!) so I sat for awhile and didn't drink and ate dinner and drank water. I probably had half of that drink, if even that.
As the night progressed further in I accompanied someone else to the bar and got another small rum and coke and stood near the bar to mingle with friends and family. I think I got another one after awhile of watching people dance and them doing the bouqet (I probably spelled that wrong) toss.At that point I think that was "drink" number... 5? 6 if you count the double one? But they were small, and I couldn't feel anything. I've heard that some people that take the Wellbutrin cannot feel themselves getting drunk at times, but when I first started taking it and was about 5-6 days in and we were playing drinking games I got drunk pretty fast. But at the wedding I kept my composure and became a bit more loose and buzzed, but not drunk. A cousin got us all shots of Jameson, which I slipped to a waiter while no one was looking since, well... It's Jameson and I don't want to fall into a drunk coma. I got another small mixed drink (7&7) and the cousin came back and got us more shots... But this time is was SoCo & Lime, which I took since it isn't as strong. I may have had one more drink after. I guess like... 7-8ish drinks total? The wedding was very long... It was 6 hours! Like I said, I didn't feel drunk (I didn't drive) and sexual function, in case you were wondering, was perfectly fine later. A little bit numb due to the alcohol, but we could do everything necessary... yeah.
The next day I felt alright. I didn't get that anxiety like I used to the next day, but I did sleep a good amount and was just groggy and tired.
Sunday night we went out for my fiancee's birthday to Dave & Busters. This was my first time in over a year to a bar-like place that is high energy. I didn't know what to expect, and I took a half of a Xanax like 8 hours prior, so I didn't feel it much. We got there and got right to the bar where her friends were waiting. I got a Rum and Coke, and guess what? It was just as small as the weddings! It was literally a few sips and it could've been done, but I sipped on it and we got appetizers. Then I got some girly drink because it looked delicious. Then a larger Rum and Coke (We sat there for over an hour waiting for others, eating, socializing, etc). Then we went to play games and I sipped on the large Rum and Coke as we walked around and played games, which is why I got the big one. We were staying there for quite awhile. I sat on that for awhile, carrying it around. Later on in the night I got a light draft beer. Honestly, I felt buzzed, not really drunk. A heavy buzz, but I'd say I was under the limit if I had a breathalyzer handy.
Unfortunately I had work the next morning (Monday), but I was fine. Sleepy, but fine.
I am still taking the Propranolol 10mg, but when I drank I didn't take it at night, but I still take it in the morning. I think it makes me very tired, so I am going to ask if I can cut down again or stop it altogether when I see him next week. The night of the wedding my fiancee and I walked to the gas station and got a 6 pack, which we barely touched (She had one and I had a half of a one). I smoke when I drink usually, so I had one cigarette, which sometimes gives me anxiety, but this time I felt fine. Otherwise, I don't smoke.
I didn't black out at all, obviously, but I have drank myself into a black out before. Well, kind of. I don't really remember the night, but I think I knew what I was doing at the time... kind of. Apparently we went to a club/bar and I talked to some girl I know, saw her the next day by complete accident. I didn't remember it at all and said, "Wow! I haven't seen you in so long!" and she was like, "I saw you last night...". Yeah. Apparently I acted like a fool, as did my other friends a bit, but at the time I wasn't drinking as much as they were and couldn't handle it as well.
I know Xanax has a shorter half-life than Klonopin, and when I take it I take HALF of the smallest prescibred amount. I try and make sure that I take it hours upon hours in advance, drink water and eat plenty of food.
My fiancee's actual birthday is coming up this weekend and she has plans to go to New York City and barhop and stuff. I don't know if I can do that... I am thinking about it. I WANT to go, but that I don't know if I can handle going to the city in itself, never mind going to random packed bars and such. It is up in the air, but she understands. :/