No I don't, which is the reason I think she is so angry. She was always hateful and controlling, but it has spiraled out of control now. If I'm gonna get detailed, she has threatened to hire a hitman and PI to bring me home, has lied about having diseases/family members dying to make me move back, lied and said doctors have called me to tell me I am dying, etc. She is very irrational. I recieve around 100-400 texts from her a day being yelled at how much of a disgrace I am. Its an awful nuisance.
And yeah, I've learned my lesson about opening up to her. Like I said, I'd get desperate sometimes and turn to her but I realize now its just ammunition for her to use against me in the future.