Cuchculan is right, Lulu. Get a little hope and pleasure out ofthe small things. I lopve my twolittle grandsons and get joy out of beingwith them. And, when I hathis illnessthree yearsago, it left oneday as quickly as it came. You have tobe patient. In Alcoholics Anonymous, they have a saying, "Fake it til you make it." I manage tolaugh andit makes me feel better.
You are not alone, andnever, ever give up hope. As the Cuch says, you never know what tomorrow may bring, especially in the way of happiness.