This summer was flat out rough - there's no sugar coating it. I've met so many amazing people here on AZ and learned so much about so many people who are individually struggling with their own journeys. If I've learned anything from being on Anxiety Zone it's that so many of us face multiple different obstacles in life aside from our anxiety. A lot of people on this website may think of themselves as weak or incapable - and afraid, but I want you all to know that you guys are some of the strongest people I've ever met. The way everybody struggles but also does their best to help others is absolutely incredible. None of you guys are weak and I know that everyone single one of you - myself included can beat this.
I've heard so many people over the summer say they were going to die. Multiple times actually.....but guys it's September and we're all still here. To me if anything that just proves that we've all worried for months and months about something that never happened to us at all.
I had a really good talk with my mom yesterday about my fears, and how I'm so afraid of suddenly dying that I incessantly worry about it and this is what she said to me -
"In life everybody has a ticket. You are born with this invisible ticket that nobody can see and you can never find out what your invisible ticket says, but the ticket is most certainly there. Everyones ticket ends at some point, nobody knows when it's going to happen so it doesn't do anyone any good worrying about it. Some people's tickets are up at 6 years old, some peoples tickets are up at 16 years old and some peoples tickets are up 90 years old. My grandmother smoked multiple times everyday since she was sixteen years old and lived well into her nineties and died of old age (natural causes), my cousin was an olympic athlete - one of the healthiest and fit women I've ever met in my entire life and one night she had a couple drinks but wasn't drunk and jumped off the diving board into the swimming pool, somehow hit her head and died instantly. A tragic horrible accident, but her ticket was up. I've known people who take exceptional care of their bodies health and fitness and died of cancer or a heart attack, and I've known people who never really exercised or watched what they've eaten and lived long and full lives. Nobody knows when their ticket is up, all you can do is enjoy your life."
I need you all to know that yes we suffer from horrible debilitating anxiety but we are SO much more than our anxiety and the less we think about it the less power we give it. We can overcome this and the first step is stop being so afraid all the time (I know this is much easier said than done) but really we need to fill our life with meaningful days and use our time proactively. The busier we keep ourselves the less time we have to worry about being scared. I hope you all are doing well today.