I am sorry you are having a hard time.
I do understand the desire of wanting a pill to make the anxiety disorder go away. Many people would like that. meds can be a help
for many with mental illnesses like anxiety BUT unlike organic illnesses--like bacterial infection--- swallowing a pill will NOT be a cure. Mostly what an SSRI does is slow the whacked out repetitive/obsessive thinking enough so that the rational thinking can get a thought in edgewise. Benzoes--well, those aren't cures either. they are sort of like what a resuce inhaler does for asthma
. Unfortunately anxiety disorders need to be tackled in a different way---which is getting down to what got you in this predicament in the first place. It also involves abandoning reactive habits and adopting PROactive habits long term. You may be wondering what I am talking about. I have written soooo many posts about this ----what I think helps people to get better---- that now I have posted links on my profile on that instead of saying the same thing all over again.
again I am sorry you are so worn out. Anxiety definitely does that to people.
I wish you the best