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Offline kcg13

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Just frustrated & need a place to let it out
« on: August 31, 2014, 12:40:54 AM »
The biggest frustration is doing well and then taking steps back.  I guess that is why I am writing this.  Because I can easily fall away tonight.  I have been doing all of my anti-anxiety things and doing well overall.  Happier and more positive than I have been in a long time.  Then it happens.  I find something.  Actually thinking I found something on my son (which is nothing but started the panic like feelings) and then on myself (felt something I wasn't even looking for - how true is the statement that if you look, you will find).  And yet again, panic.  And why?  I know I was at the dr for a checkup last month.  All was awesomely well.  I know my body is not asymmetrical.  Everything is soft, nothing hard (it is lumpiness that triggers me).  Yet I need to make sure.  It's like.... I am the one with the problem ... The problem that my body is not the way I want it to be!  How crazy is that?!?!.   I don't want to 'feel' anything on it - no lumps or asymmetry - but that's not the way it is ...but that is how I want it to be!   This is so frustrating!  And you are the only guys who get it!  No one else in my life has HA! So thus, I am kinda venting my frustrations tonight instead of panicking and continually self checking.  Just thankful for this site & the awesome people on it.  Thank you guys for reading.
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