Hello, I decided to get on here because I personally don't know anyone who suffers from anxiety and I don't have people I feel I can speak to. It started after I had surgery about 13 years ago, but I got it under control till about 2 months ago when my fiance abandoned me. Oddly enough, I am a life coach and holistic health practitioner (not currently working), so I feel pressure not to speak about this to anyone. I have been on meds before, but it made the anxiety worse. I find meditation helps quite a bit. My anxiety is not related to any one thing, but iI know that being alone has triggered it. I realized that I had made this person like my safety net, although I was able to go out without any problems, I find now it is really hard. My self esteem has suffered, my health, at times I felt like I was blowing my mind, so here I am because I feel isolated and alone in all of this and need to connect with others who understand.