I consider myself recovering from GAD. I also consider myself lucky. Unlike many, I suffered thru GAD for just six months (though it felt like an eternity) starting in the midst of a never ending winter. I tried Buspar for 10 weeks. No luck. I asked to try Klonopin. It took a couple weeks to find the right dosage. But I've been feeling completely my old self for almost two months. So I was curious who on these boards considers themselves recovered from GAD or moving in that direction.
Also curious if folks have recovered and had GAD relapses. For the record, I take 1 mg at night. And .5 mg only as needed during the day. It rarely is needed.
Sometimes, in recovery, I take for granted how amazing it is to have a normal day without anxiety. I don't want to ever do that, forget. I must remember that mornings I woke as a shadow of myself, a ghost. How I walked through a life that looked familiar, but with only a fraction of the confidence and calm and joy. I used to tell my doctors that with anxiety, I only feel 40% of the love of my friends. I only feel I'm 40% the person I used to be. The world was in black and white, not living color.
I told the doctors I hungered to feel 100% myself again. Would that ever be possible? They couldn't say for sure. Well, I am feeling that possibility now and wondered how many others are.