Thanks AncientMelody!! It helps to remember that it CAN just be a temporary state IF I simply notice it, acknowledge it and wisely (using the rational mind, not emotional) process it. It's MUCH easier to work through my little "detours" on my recovery road if I ask for a helpful break at The CSU and process it with the support staff. I only stayed 48 hours, but it was productive, encouraging AND it prevented me from going into a crisis. I do NOT have issues with self harm, but I CAN just totally cease to function and care for myself IF not caught early!! So glad I caught it early as switching down to Suboxone after tapering off Methadone does some very funky things to a person's mood and ability to manage stress.