I love your mom. I just have to throw that out there.
If you want to feel better, quit looking for 'abnormalities'. You've told me that you are trying to get better. Honey, I am just not seeing it.
You are doing all the reactive stuff. reactive stuff = increased anxiety.
Your tasks today, if you dare to do it:
1. take two walks around the block. listen to the birds, stop and smell some flowers. or listen to your music.
TWO times. I don't want to hear, "I can't", btw
2. choose an activity--- puzzle, bake, see a movie....
3. log out of az, walk away from the computer.
4. tell your brilliant mom
sixpack gave you work to do. tell her I want her to hold you to it. she and I are going to make you, take care of yourself, whether you like it or not. after a while you will do it all on your own because you will start to see that it works.
tomorrow, some new tasks will be added. none of which will be logging on here to ask for reassurance. you *may* log on, if you are here to to tell us the success you had doing your tasks. at no time are you allowed to poke or prod yourself. at no time are you allowed google crap. at no time are you allowed to what if...
If you keep your mind occupied with decent things, over time your mind and body will be *allowed* to relax. at which time symptoms will diminish and you will start feeling better. from there you start working on the stress or issues that got you thinking and feeling the way you are feeling.
btw-- over time doesn't mean an hour or two or a week. I am talking about several weeks to months of continued "good stuff" I am not saying this will be a walk in the park--easy peasy. you are going to have your beasty yammering at you. however persevere and you will come out on top. if you don't you will flop.