Hi everyone, I'm new to this forum. I found it online because I have nowhere else to turn to and it makes me feel better knowing that I am not alone in this mental & physical battle.
I am not a diagnosed hypochondriac but I have never seen a doctor/psychiatrist for this specifically. Since 2010- I annually go to at least 3 doctors multiple times just to have myself checked. I spend on medical tests-- because my insurance does not cover it. And just this 2014, I have a seen a pulmonologist, a cardiologist, 3 internal medicine practitioners, and tomorrow, an ortho for some backpain. The other day when I tried to see my gp, the first thing he said without hearing me speak was "you're okay". So I guess I do have issues.
About a month and a half ago I fell pretty bad in the gym. The trainer asked me to jump up and down a stepper that was pretty high-- and I am not a jumper. Anyways I did it, but on the 5th jump, I lost my balance and fell flat on my bum. A week after that, my butt/tailbone started hurting pretty bad and it's been recurring since then. This has become the most recent cause of my worry. I'm so afraid it could be cancer or something serious. I spend hours online researching and googling-- and none of it helps.
I went for an Xray last Friday and my GP said i have a slightly scoliotic back. He didn't interpret the xray results but referred me to an ortho who would only be back in town tomorrow. The anxiety of not knowing what my xray means is driving me nuts. I keep staring at it and the longer I look, the more weird shapes I see. I even thought one was the shape of a tumor. But the xray people would have pointed it out in the results, right?
My anxiety started when I had a son back in 2008. The thought of leaving him too early has haunted me. I want to be there for him. I want to see him grow up. But this anxiety is getting out of hand and it is affecting my quality of life.
Anyone out there with tailbone pain? Anyone on the same boat? How do you deal with your anxiety?