Well I was doing decent this month of August, not great, but just decent to where I could control my symptoms and anxiety well enough to not freak out. Everything was going ok but not that great but I did not feel horrible all the time like I did in May, June, and July. Now as if today I have had high anxiety all day and depersonalization along with just plain not feeling right at all and like something is really wrong. I still have my Lyme disease worries but I was able to handle it for the most part, I am going to take doxy for a month starting Monday just to be safe. Heck my symptoms were occasionally as opposed to all day everyday, I was even able to do yard work yesterday with no problem at all and had some beers after and felt like the old me a little bit yesterday. Now i wake up today with a hangover, the first few hours weren't bad but as soon as I at some unhealthy food all of a sudden the thought of swallowing was weird to me and it didn't feel right and all of a sudden, BOOM I am feeling malaise and dp/dr again all of a sudden. I have been fearing als as of late too with all these ice bucket challenges going around, as well as the state of my health in general, will always have lyme worries but I am hoping to experiment with treatment at a low level ( no crazy high dose like llmds do) just to see if I feel a bit better. I fear sudden throwing up now or just dying young, it has been one terrible day for me, I feel like my mono is back but I am hoping that is not the case and that I wake up decent tomorrow but I can only pray at this point. I had a good amount of tests from June to July, and although not perfect, doctors did not see anything alarming I guess, so I am trying to remind myself of that, it's just so scary and makes me nervous when I feel like I'm deteriorating at 26 years old. I just had to vent cause august was better than the previous months and I was able to get through it without medication and I felt like I was making progress until today, I feel so defeated and scared that I'll either be like this forever, or I will die young. Maybe it was just a bad day but I am hoping that's all it is and that tomorrow will be better. I apologize everyone I just needed to vent, u hope everyone is doing well on here also.