This is how I have been feeling, and it is the Damn root of my problems.
You know how you can become aware of your breathing? Or blinking? And you feel like you have to breathe manually? And the more you think of this the more you feel like you have to do it manually?
That's how I feel about living. I feel like I have become aware of living, and I have to do it manually. I'm constantly aware of being alive from the moment I wake up until I distract myself to actually LIVE normally. This causes copious amounts of anxiety.
It goes away when I am distracted because it's similar to breathing: when I stop thinking about breathing, the body does it by itself again.
Is this a good description?