I worry about my Heart.
I've had Heart Palps for years without ever taking any notice, however, when I had my first panic attack (18 months ago) those palps have become scary.
I went to A&E, they carried out the usual tests - ECG, Bloodwork, Chest X-Ray etc and it all came back that I was fine. Certainly didn't feel like it. Well since then, any skipped beat or banging Heart scares the life out of me, I always feel as if my Heart isn't working properly, and the funny thing is, I actually don't think that what scares me now is any different to what I have put up with for the years before the panic attack. That Panic attack changed everything for me.
I check my pulse every single day, even when I'm feeling fine. It's madness behaviour, but I can't help it. I've even got to a stage where I'm checking my pulse against my wifes.
I keep telling myself that everything has to be fine. I was checked at the Hospital!!!
After that Hospital check I decided to get back to being as fit as I useed to be, so I started a fitness regime of swimming and walking. I would walk about my City (Edinburgh), and for anyone that knows Edinburgh, it has a lot of steep hills and stairs. During this time I put my Heart through a lot with the swimming and the flights of stairs etc, and not once did I die. I stopped the exercise when I went on holiday and failed to start when I got back. I am now scared to do exercise because I feel my Heart would give out. A vicious circle.
I'm tempted to get back to the Doctors to do some tests again just to give me that peace-of-mind to then start my fitness again.