I think I did feel a bit more anxious, but not in a really bad way, after I upped the lex dose this evening, but it was not long lived and could be placebo effect for all I know. This should be similar to when I was tapering the lex and going onto Pristiq last spring, for a while I was on both and as we know Pristiq comes in a 50 mg pill so its all or nothing. I didn't have much trouble with the transition (other than some anxiety and mostly minor stuff) until after I went off the lex totally, then I remember crashing a week later. Then we tried to raise the Pristiq to 100, no go, then add the remeron (okay at half a pill but not at 15 mg and still not doing the job) then added back lex at 5 mg with mixed results. I also think the klonopin at 1.5 mg should quell most anxiety, and I can take more if it gets too bad. I just hope it doesn't add to the depression that seems to be strong with this anxiety spell. I need to be able to function as school starts soon, and that itself can be a stressful thought. I really think, though, that afterwards I'd rather go back on lex or some SSRI (not Prozac, that gave me akithisia or however its spelled many decades ago) than mess with mood stabilizers other than klonopin, if it can be called that. I guess a lot of people take Seroquel but its in the same class I think as sapphris, which made me black out and go to the er with the one and only dose I took (my wife has never recovered from the sight of me on the bathroom floor that night, lucky I didn't hurt myself falling, I don't even remember blacking out--and I never have on any other medication in my life) and while it seems to be good at stopping anxiety it also seems to mess with ones metabolic profile and is another thing that doesn't sound like fun to go off of. Lamactil sounds great for those for whom it works, but again has issues that would be deal killers for me.
As for cholesterol, its not that mine was ridiculously high, but my HDL was low, so I needed to get it down from about 210 or so, and I must say Lipitor did the job, it usually hovers around 130 or 140ish or so, and my HDL has gone up significantly as I have lost weight and/or because of the fish oil pills. Since I've been tested for most things under the sun like most anxiety folks, I already know I have some mild plaque in my carotid arteries, so hopefully this slows down its buildup. Of course, if Lipitor was what made me have this current round of anxiety/depression I would go off it immediately, but I've been on it for years without problems before. I am sure my mind issues are not that simple anyway, if they were then the fish oil would have fixed it, let alone the meds. I wasn't gifted with genes for low cholesterol anyway, so I don't expect to make it to 100, but I would like to live the rest of my life without anxiety and depression, I feel like its wasted time that instead could be enjoyed like before. I have to admit, though, there have been some good days even during this year and a half long hell where I have glimpsed my former life, and that gives me hope.