So after all my optimism and confidence and even new illnesses I have fixated upon I have returned to old faithful. I got up to go to the bathroom and all of a sudden felt my breathing feel weird, like I was experiencing shortness of breath.
Sure enough upon reaching the bathroom I began with thoughts of;
"What is this weird feeling, anxiety cant be doing this, oh ***** its my heart!"
So I immediately reminded myself it was anxiety, that I have experienced this exact thing 4 weeks ago and I have been to Doctors who have all informed me I have been fine.
"But what if they missed something?"
Indeed what if they missed something. But what is there really to miss? Four weeks ago you were sprinting up and down a football pitch. You walk in and out of town every single day. No you're not at marathon level fitness but you're not obese, you don't smoke, infact you've never smoked and you know smoking is one of the major heart disease causers.
"But what if it is something else... something more sinister and evil and lurking there."
Damnit anxiety! You're right! What if it is something more sinister and evil! But wait... then why does it only happen sometimes and never when I am distracted. Sorry Mr. Anxiety but I think you lose this battle. I will not slip this time.