As you read over the forums you see so many more people like you we are all here for the same reasons for the most part.
I suffer from Panic and Anxiety also a lot more and I go through stages where I will gag and dry heave and sometimes vomit which I hate but nothing like when I first started out for me I do a lot of self talk and distraction.
This site has helped me see I am not alone and reading everyone's post also chat I go and watch I do talk sometimes but I try to just observe and know I am not alone and many are in different places but still understand where as most people we deal with in our lives don't understand.
Maybe you need to go back to CBT Therapy I know I want to try the CBT Therapy but the therapist where I am from are not that great I have tried so I am searching but I may have to travel pretty far and I am agoraphobic so that makes it hard.
You will overcome this again okay try and remember those days when you weren't anxious or panicky.