I totally understand where you're coming from! I'm a junior in college now, and I first started having really bad anxiety my freshman year of college, and I struggled so much that semester. It didn't affect my grades, but it hurt my social life, and on weekends I would alternate between going home and having my boyfriend stay with me. One thing that really helped was seeing a counselor. My school had counseling available for free, and I was able to work through a lot of my anxiety and it was a lot easier to cope. Plus, it was nice that nobody really knew about it. The building that my counselor was in was also used for other stuff, so it wasn't like everybody that I saw knew that I was there for that. I hope you feel better soon!