Yesterday I experienced multiple panic attacks, which made it feel like the entire day was just one major attack. I normally avoid sleep aids and the like, but by bedtime I was too worried about being kept up by the panic attacks, I was willing to take something to help me sleep.
We were all out of (non-habit forming) sleep aids, so I resorted to Nyquil. The moment I got in to bed, my mind realized that I just self-medicated with a substance that can be addictive. It was definitely a big slap in the face. While I did get some sleep, it wasn't peaceful and I woke up to an even worse panic attack.
Addiction is a big problem in my family. 3 out of 4 of my grandparents were addicts, as well as my brother. It's not a road I want to go down, but now I can see how it can easily happen. To put it plainly, it sucks.