Hi all! Although I'm far from new to anxiety, I decided to look for a place to vent frustration, get some help and hopefully give some help.
It's 5:45am and I've been up for 3 hours convinced I'm having a heart attack. I know I'm not imagining the chest tightness. I also know that if I was having a heart attack, I wouldn't be sitting here typing. I know all the statistics, signs, symptoms, read everything and was reassured hundreds of times that I'm fine but it doesn't seem to help. I just find it hard to believe the panic/anxiety can cause you physical pain. It's just so f'in annoying!!!
Anywho, I'm 36. Engaged to be married a month from tomorrow. My fiancÚ lives about an hour away until after the wedding (just b/c of work) and we're together all weekends. Sometimes longer b/c I'm laid off so I spend extra time there. That being said...when he's around I'm fine. When I'm alone....I sleep like ***** and the chest pains start. Today is the worst it's been in a while, though. I'm embarrassed to say....I just camped out in the parking lot of the hospital around the corner for about an hour. I know I'm not alone here but it helps to hear it.
I'm certain everything going on is playing a roll in my elevated stress level these days. I'm open to all chats, questions,a anything happening and I'm happy to be here mad amongst others going through the same BS :)