I have dealt with anxiety and hypochondria for years now for various illnesses and diseases for my mind to fixate on. As soon I am done with one my mind wanders on to the next. It engulfs every aspect of my life and all things I do, relationships, activities, work and things I enjoy. It lets up from time to time and circles back around with more power than the last time and im sick of it.
I've decided to take the power from it by realizing that I will die by own hand one day. I'm not sure exactly when but most likely when I've achieved and taken care of the things I need to for myself and my family so they won't be burdened when I'm gone. Since I've come to this realization my life has been more enjoyable for I know my anxiety has no more power because I have determined the outcome already. This might sounds crazy to those who don't understand and I don't necessarily want to die I just want the noise to stop. I can't tell this to the people close to me for they will freak out and intervene. Was wondering if anyone has ever felt the same and if their circumstances changed at all