I think I'm having a panic attack but honestly I'm not sure and am starting to wonder if it's something more serious this time.
All my usual methods for calming myself are not working. I don't know what really caused this one either. Normally I have a worry of something health related that springs a panic attack but this one feels different. But don't they all feel "different"?
I tried playing some Tetris. That normally ALWAYS works for me but not now so i tried reading, again nothing. I am just sitting on a chair feeling like I can't catch my breath but it's been 5 minutes now surely I'd have passed out or fainted if it was real?
Then there's this damn pain in the centre of my chest slightly off to the right. My logic and my research both tell me that heart pain is not this sharp and in such a pin point location so it's is probably muscle related. But I have been on a 4 hour car journey today so I am literally just know weighing the possibility of a blood clot but it would be far too fast, doesn't make logical sense.
I guess by writing this I am attempting to talk myself down from this panic attack by logically analysing my fears and arguing then in a written format. That seem weird ha?
Then there's the damn pain in my right hip. It seems to be located in the bone and it is very much at the side, not even slightly to the front so it can't be appendicitis. Plus it's been on and off for a about 4 days.
Finally the abdomen pain, I hadn't noticed it much at all today but now I feel it. It's been there nearly a week and has never moved more to the right or increased in pain.
I'm fine I have to be fine. Nothing that I am feeling adds up to an emergency situation. Maybe the fact I am talking to myself on a forum is cause to worry about my mental stability ha but physically what real issues do I have that require emergency medical treatment? I know the dizziness comes from my weird breathing caused by my anxious feelings. It's not heart related.
Wish I knew what triggered this one. Maybe it's because I have been so busy this weekend constantly around people and now that I am home it has all quietened down too much. I used to love being alone, it was my favourite but now I seem to be afraid of it.