Okay, I know this is suppose to be a common symptom. All I'm going to say is that this fear started when I learned about schizophrenia in psychology, it was while I was taking Zoloft which had calmed my anxiety down about 90%. Mental illness does not run on either side of my family, maybe a bit of substance abuse (alcohol). Anyways, I myself have dabbled in pot and LSD and some other weird drug that was more along the lines of MDMA (Felt like a mix between speed and psychedelia).
I started experiencing anxiety the day after I took one gram of shrooms, I had a panic attack on the trip and it's weird considering I've done a way higher dose of LSD before that, and that trip was mind-blowing. I was 16 at the time, didn't quite know how to integrate the experience. So after I got over my fear of having a heart attack with Zoloft it was time to taper off the medication so I did (didn't think I really needed it). My anxiety didn't come back full-blown until a month after I stopped the medication (probably because I didn't really change my life-style/didn't do therapy, but I did quit all drugs with the occasional toke which quickly ended as it made my anxiety worse).
Fast-forward a couple months and here I am terrified that I will lose my mind/start hearing voices/whispers. The brain fog doesn't help either nor does the depersonalisation. I was doing much better but the more I research schizophrenia the more I get the symptoms of being in the early stages. It's terrifying and has resulted in loss of sleep and loss of appetite. I feel like there's this tight band around my head all the time and I'm always waiting to start hearing voices/hallucinate or believe my delusional thoughts (which now occur because that's what I read).
I'm not going to lie, this is extremely scary for me because now I'm at the point where I'm constantly listening to the background noises and interpreting them as whispers or voices (like what the early stage is suppose to be). Any advice on this would be greatly appreciated. This is the fear that has caused my depersonalisation to kick in the most and I'm extremely worried since I'm only 17 and this is around the age it's supposed to develop. Deep down I realize this could a irrational but I'm hoping that having anxiety in no way increases risk of schizophrenia.
Sorry for the rambling, just seeking reassurance. :