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Shaking aching shrinking thigh! Big MND fears
« on: August 15, 2014, 10:14:30 AM »
Hi all,

Been having some real troubles the last few weeks with my thigh.

Had a neuro exam 10 days ago with GP, who says it was totally normal, but I just can't take that I feel so not normal!

I'm convinced of muscle waste in my left thigh, it hurts, buzzes, spasms, aches, hums, vibrates in a isolated area of my thigh, 24/7. The area there, the muscles are smaller, flatter & less defined. Since the docs I think it's continued to shrink & have noticed bumps, ridges & dents in the large thigh muscle. I can never forget about it because of the constant sensations there.

It feels odd to walk on, it doesn't feel right- gives me so much grief!

Also the fact that I've lost like, 5kgs and no signs from any where else in my body (am only 5"2 so weightloss of that amount should be quite noticable!) other than from my

At my wits end, this is too scary

All and any thought & comments, welcome please

Hxx
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Re: Shaking aching shrinking thigh! Big MND fears
« Reply #1 on: August 15, 2014, 10:52:22 AM »
This is an easy one.  If you have atrophy from *** then you will have an abnormal reflex exam.  If your reflexes are normal the chance that it is something sinister decrease astronomically.  Since the doc isn't concerned and hasn't reported a +babinski or clonus...chances are that you are just fine. 
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Re: Shaking aching shrinking thigh! Big MND fears
« Reply #2 on: August 15, 2014, 11:54:48 AM »
Hi Shawn,
Thanks for your reply!
When I saw the doc 10 days ago he did a couple of reflex things in each leg, and I keep hanging on to his comment afterwards which was "That was a totally normal exam".
Some one told me- Normal exam = No ***

It's so hard, on one level I believe that, on another I totally believe what my body is feeling & it's so scary!

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Re: Shaking aching shrinking thigh! Big MND fears
« Reply #3 on: August 15, 2014, 12:32:05 PM »
welcome ladyh

you are new here I see.  Once you've had a chance to peruse the forum, you will note that ALS and other motor neuron diseases are VERY POPULAR amongst anxious peeps.  there are thousands of threads describing just what you are describing. 

I don't know how long you've had anxiety, (which being on this site tells me that you are aware that you must) but anxiety/stress causes all kinds of physical symptoms as well as distorting our perceptions of how things really are.  At some point we get ourselves very much mired in the endless cycle of anxiousness/checking/symptoms....

Your post does read very much the way an anxious person says/perceives things.

if you click on my username.   it will take you to my profile.  i have 4 links about anxiety and its wily ways.  the third link talks about common symptoms.  I am not saying I am an anxiety guru.  what I am saying is I've dealt with it myself.  I've been a member here 5+ yrs and see how anxious thinking plays out around here each and every day.   :yes:  :winking0008:

and, I  don't think you have any motor neuron disease.
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Re: Shaking aching shrinking thigh! Big MND fears
« Reply #4 on: August 15, 2014, 12:43:19 PM »
Hi Sixpack and thank you very much for your message,
Yeah, I am very aware of my anxiety, it's been an ongoing rumbling problem for me, and the last 6-8weeks has manifested in this health anxiety, and I've not been relaxed or really very happy since!

It's so tricky, I feel like I could accept my brain going crazy with worry, if I wasn't feeling and seeing all these physical things with my body, and well my leg! Despite being told that my leg is normal, to me it is different and It's so hard when there are physical, visible, measurable things wrong or different with you. For me like all the sensory stuff in the leg, the weight loss etc.

I am falling into a cycle of constantly testing my leg. Have a had a few low points like yesterday, doing squats in a coffee shop toilet! (can one leg squat with right leg but not with left!) feels so much weaker and it's all really scary!!!

I tried to go to your profile, but it says I don't have access to that area? Is it because I am new perhaps? Could you maybe post the links here I'd very much like to read them!

Thanks for your comments, I hope to soon believe what you say about the *** !!
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Re: Shaking aching shrinking thigh! Big MND fears
« Reply #6 on: August 15, 2014, 03:01:51 PM »
You've just describedmy left thigh a couple of months ago, and worrying a out limb onset als then gave way to worrying about bulbar, which is where I am at now. If your doctor isn't worried, you should not be either, though I know very well it is easier said than done.
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Re: Shaking aching shrinking thigh! Big MND fears
« Reply #7 on: August 15, 2014, 05:35:12 PM »
Thank you very much for the links SiXpack!

SkittishSari, it's a scary thing to be happening. Has a doctor told you you're okay? Are you feeling better now?

It's just so difficult to know what to do fur the best, as I know I saw my GP less than 2 weeks ago but I feel like so much has changed and progressed since then, and want to go back with these new & scarier findings.

Difficult!

I know I shouldn't but I've been pushing the leg and it really hurts and is really trembly now. I feel so silky for feeling this way & hate how self absorbed it's making me. But it's so hard not to be when you're convinced this terrible thing is befalling you😔
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Re: Shaking aching shrinking thigh! Big MND fears
« Reply #8 on: August 18, 2014, 05:54:08 AM »
Hi everyone,

I'm just about to start some therapy, and have a first meeting, assessment type thing later. Really looking forward to is & want to get myself on the road to recovery.

This being said, I am still so anxious about my leg. When I lift the leg out to the side, a big hole, flat space appears down the outside of the upper part of the thigh. it just totally dips in and becomes hollow. I think this is a new problem, it's scary, I don't like it. This is in the leg that's smaller, stiffer & less flexible.

At what point should I go back to the doctors? Have only seen GP once about this issue with the leg & that was two weeks ago- anyone got any advice on this?

Thanks & Hope everyone is having a good day so far
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Re: Shaking aching shrinking thigh! Big MND fears
« Reply #9 on: August 18, 2014, 08:20:06 AM »
First, I want to say I am proud of you for taking the steps towards getting better.  Therapy should be a huge help to you.  As for the physical part of this...I can say anxiety plays tricks with our head.  Your ability to observe yourself is broken.  Self examination is increasing your anxiety and pain.  If you had a normal neuro exam the likelihood of this being something serious is extremely small.  I would follow the advice of your GP.  If he/she believes you need more of a work up...then do it.  If not, let this go.

As we age our bodies change...and those of us who self examine notice things...and they are very real and different to us.  We put a value on them...when in reality they mean nothing.  If I had a dollar for every person who thought they had atrophy, dents etc and placed anxiety upon that "symptom" then I would be a wealthy man.  Anxious people lose weight...we all have asymmetry...our observations about ourselves are broken...then we refuse to believe our physicians.  All of that we have a choice over.  We can choose to believe we have a very atypical presentation of a super rare disorder that our doc has missed or we can face the real problem...anxiety. 

I wrote up a post learning from anxiety.  Instead of focusing on your leg...read that post...and really take it in without going back to thinking about your leg which is overwhelming your thoughts. 
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