Well, I've been on .5-1 mg per day for over 6 months and 5 months of .5-1.5 mg xanax daily before that...I'm following my psychologist and my psychiatrists advice and trying to get there. I do feel better some days. I feel back to square 1 some days. Today is one of those square one days. As I laid in bed thinking about it, I think most of my square 1 problem came from reading this thread...
I know this, reading people blame benzos for their problems put's the seeds of doubt in my head and causes me to go backwards. I love this board and have got so much comfort from it in terrible terrible times. I hate this board in that I can come here feeling good and read something that it takes me days to get past in my recovery.
Dude, seriously, .01 mg per day for well over a decade? What in the world are you worrying about?
Cosomo, I so sorry today feels like one your bad days, not one of the better ones. I genuinely feel for you, because my days go back & forth also.
First & foremost, don't let the reading of this thread, or any forum thread anywhere, be the source of feeling back at square one. If a thread on this board can cause you to stop feeling good and cost you several bad days, perhaps you shouldn't be reading this board. You say other threads here have given you much comfort, but you can be responsible and choosy about which threads you engage with. If a topic seems like something that's gonna bug you, just shift threads & move on. It sounds like you already trust your psychologist & psychiatrists advice, so stick with what they
recommend, regardless of whatever questions & conclusions are posted here...no one here is a doctor, and not your doctor, so please be responsible about how you ingest any information here.
Also, you gave example after example of people who did fine
with long-term benzo use, and most of the responses to my original question have echoed that, including some very insightful posts by Ian, who has done, and posted, extensive research. So if anything, reading all
of this thread should give you confidence that taking your meds is totally fine and nothing this thread should make you nervous about.
Lastly, the reason I brought this question up was specifically because I was about to increase my miniscule dose and go onto a regular dose of at least .5/day or more, and not because I was concerned much about the small amount I've ingested up till now. I've been having a rough patch for most of this year, and was thinking of giving myself constant relief form constant doses, something I've never done in the past. And before I started up, I wanted to make sure I wasn't heading for trouble...particular because another, more benzo-reactionary forum said I was. So I asked, and I'm satisfied with the answers.
For myself, I chose to stop even my small intermittent doses Klonopin about 12 weeks ago and see if I could actually feel better staying off it and allowing my brain/receptors to "reset." What I've taken away from this thread - a beneficial, rather than disturbing, overview that I hope you can also embrace - is that I'm fine either way. If I can stay off it and don't need it, that may be the best option, but if I do
need to start up again, even on a much more regular daily dose than I ever took previously, my body & brain will be fine with that too.