Most epileptics on meds are well controlled. they don't have many seizures. I know not really anything you want to hear....
if you look stuff up, in your state of mind, you are going to find scary stuff. and, sorry, but that is your fault for doing that.
I am not trying to sound mean, but I am going to bow out of posting on your threads anymore. It seems you are just not ready or are unable to hear anything other than what your fears are telling you. Hopefully, in a couple of years when you still haven't had a seizure, your fear of seizures will go away.
good luck and be well.