Hi everyone. Hope all is well.
I'm going through a rough patch right now and it couldn't come at any worse of a time! I'm leaving for vacation this Friday!
It all started the other night when I had a hard time falling asleep. My mind was racing and I just couldn't relax enough to fall asleep. Nevertheless I did fall asleep but had to be up early the next day for work. Then it started. I started dwelling on how I had such a bad nights sleep. I started my usual "your going crazy" " maybe you're developing schizophrenia" bull****. ((If you read my other posts, you will see I gave struggled w HA mental and physical before
)) I realize how ridiculous this is but I just cant shake it this time. It's ridiculous that I can't have a bad nights sleep w out thinking something terrible is happening to me..
So now I'm sitting here depressed and miserable for being anxious and scared again. Because The past 5 mths have been good! I have been less anxious and wasn't obsessing over being " crazy", or having a brain tumor or anything! Lol I have had days that weren't so great or where I was anxious but I was able to just let it go. And now I feel like I'm back at square one and I think that what's upsetting me most. I want to have a blast on vaca but now w this anxious, obsessive state of mind I'm in, it seems less and less likely to happen
Ughhhh why can't I just let stupid thoughts go now? Why are they sticking this time? I just want to feel better before vacation. Any advise or input would be greatly appreciated! Thanks for reading!