I woke up anxious, scatter brained, tired and immediate what if questions and looking right into how I feel. I felt a little queezy.
I went out today with my mom to two stores, at first I was pretty happy cause I hadn't been out in a while.
That fell through pretty quickly, 10 minutes into the first store from what I'm assuming is hypervigilance I would see something in the corner of my eye and immediately zoom into it to see what it was, if I saw something bright or if something moved suddenly I would zoom in on it and immediately my mind was like "was that a hallucination?" Cause it never turned out to be what it kinda looked like when the caught my attention and a lot of negative thinking persued.
It's things like that when paired with DP/DR that really make everyday hard to deal with.
After a full day of this it feels I become more sensitive to ithe and the worse it gets.
Everything that is around me feels kinda of like it has no importance or lack of interest or scare of it for no reason or it feels different/weird.
Second guess everything I say/see/feel
Almost feel different about a lot of things.
Another thing I have noticed is when I say/do/express something I always analyze it immediately and try to decide whether or not it's crazy or linked to something that's more severe or some other disorder.
It's almost like obsession. That's what it feels like, it'd hard to explain.
All this usually lasts all day everyday and varies in severity.
When I experience all of these things I feel as though I should be reacting differently like in the past I know this would cause me a panic attack, but lately my reactions aren't the same..they seem to be bottled up and my reaction to the feelings and visuals is just more of the same thing.
This all seems unusual, has anyone ever experienced this before?
What is this?
Please comment soon, thank you.