Another post. I'm absolutely convinced, scared and terrified that I am losing it. I've started to not have any physical anxiety symptoms, not even really feeling anxious, but i just have these extremely weird thoughts, as if things don't make sense anymore. I think about humans and it's as if I can't relate to other humans now and it's all so weird how we're just humans - I know this sounds weird but I really can't explain it. I feel terrible, I get woken up by thoughts as opposed to anxiety and i'm having a ahrd time believing that it really is just anxiety. The word 'anxiety' when i think about it just seems weird, as if it's clouded or warped somehow - can extremely odd thoughts that i obsess about constantly be anxiety? Symptoms of anxiety? I'm so confused and I'm terrified about losing my mind, and with the human thing losing contact with the people i love and the world around me.
I'm 20 years old, had a massive panic attack about 2 1/2 months ago that triggered all of this off - I started with severe anxiety following this attack that has constantly changed and I'm now feeling like this, just so foreign and strange. It's horrible! Before the panic attack I started noticing some symptoms of heart/chest pain that i now think was anxiety related to my dad who had a ehart attack a couple of months before this all started. I see a therapist every week which has helped somewhat but overall I just feel TERRIBLE, weird, horrible, foreign, like I'm going mad, all of the time. I can't enjoy anything.
Thanks for your support, it's really appreciated.