Hi everyone, I am new here. I am a 20 year old male in my senior year of college. Currently going through a lawsuit, intense summer behavioral neuroscience course, and had a back injury back in high school. My whole life I have been overweight, until this year I took my health into my own hands and started losing weight really quickly with exercise and a better diet (not perfect diet mnd you). One day, I was eating some very salty japenese food when my life took a huge turn for the worse.
I have always been afraid of getting diabetes, yet never have been diagnosed (even though I have not been to a GP in 2+ years). I definitely have some sort of high blood pressure that I need to get in control. I have a doctors appointment set up at home, though I am currently at school and felt that I could wait until I was home to have the support of my family.
Everything I am about to describe started only when I found out i was getting sued for 100k for a car accident.
Firstly, I started getting a weird feeling on the left side of my face. Not numb, no loss of sensation, just a weird full feeling. It usually goes away when I stop thinking about it but it seems to jump around from place to place when I do think about it. I also sometimes when very stressed about anything (lawsuit, school, family) get a tingling sensation in my head. It usually goes away when I practice a breathing exercise (4 in, 7 hold, out).
Next, I have a horrible pain in my left wrist from working out and over using it, or so I think. I stopped working out my biceps as of now.
Ihave started to tremble. Not too much and I only notice it in my hands when I am still, but it is something to note.
-I have also noticed that recently I have been waking up with both arms numb and rubber like. Not a pins and needles feeling, just like a complete numb and tight feeling. I have a tempurpedic mattress pad and have slept on my arms a lot in my life, but this causes my heart rate to rise and again panic pretty badly.
A little more about me, I work at a job where I am often required to go to work at 4 a.m. 4-5 days a week. It is not a very stressful job, but waking up that early has never been a problem for me until recently. Now, I am tired all day and find myself worrying about the fact that I am so tired more than actually being tired. My sleep stinks. I am often hot at night, and wake up frequently for no reason or from noises in my apartment from roommates. Even when I sleep in (like 9-10am for me) I still feel groggy all morning and sometimes have a headache around my left eye and forehead. The headache is nothing severe, just barely noticeable. Sometimes I find myself so anxious that I get lightheaded and dizzy just from going grocery shopping.
I also have double vision. I do not see double all of the time at all, but find it very easy to see double at will. I am prescribed glasses and have an asygmatism in both eyes. But you see double vision as a symptom for everything and again it scares me.
I normally try to fall asleep at around 9-10 when I work early, but again am waking up in the middle of the night and rarely feel rested in the mornings.
The hypochondria really sets in at some points and I often find myself fighting against my mind as to convince me I am ok but could be very sick.
I am an internet searcher for sure. I read hundreds of symptom checkers for MS, Diabetes, Brain Cancer, Spinal cancer, ALS, parkinson's etc day in and day out and cannot seem to stop myself. I then fixate on whatever disease I am looking on for that day and freak out for the rest of the day about it, until I wake up the next morning with a new concern (or old one).
This is no way to live, and talking to my family about it barely helps since they do not understand. I do not want to do, it has caused so much emotional distress in the last month and I need to find help. Like I have said, I am seeing my old doctor when I return home (I also live about 8 hours from home at school and have not been home except for a short weekend break in 7 months, but think that a community effort is better than trying to make people who cannot relate understand my pain and suffering. Thank you for taking the time to read this.