Just wanted to share my story - in hopes that it might be of some help to others experiencing this "OCD Nightmare"
After the long journey of getting my "Panic Disorder", "GAD" and "Social phobias under control" - I got hit with this "OCD Nightmare" - How lucky can one get!
My OCD consisted of 3 major themes:
1) Intrusive Thoughts - That really unsettled me, where are they coming from - I was feeling a lot guilt of how these ugly thoughts would come from my own head ???
2) Checking and Rechecking - Everything - I would check the headlights on my car - did I leave them on - after checking them 5 times already, did I leave the stove on at home, on...and on.... - At that time I was working as tire installer at Sears, do you know how many times I had to recheck that new tires I installed on the car - were tightly on??? - I almost lost my job - It took me forever - I ended up checking every tire four or more times - I had visions of the car's tires coming loose on the freeway - killing people - because I feared that the tire bolts weren't tight enough - or that I forgot to tighten them!!
3) Fear of Losing Ideas and Important thoughts - My kids were about 10,11 years old, I would be at amusement park with my trusty notepad in my pocket, every time a thought or an Idea came to me, I would take the notebook out immediately and write it down, I was extremely fearful that I would lose that Idea - so I had to "Capture It" on paper. Instead of enjoying the day with my kids, I was at a bench writing every 10 minutes into my notebook. My wife brought it to my attention - "What's the matter with you? - We are here to enough time with kids!" - That made me realize - I had a problem
I went to my Psychiatrist to explain these problems – the most serious one for me was INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS –the other ones I could manage them with some mental strategies.
At this time, I was currently on Prozac and taking a small dose of a benzodiazepine (Klonopin) - My Dr. explained that we could start to increase the dosage of my Prozac from the standard 20 mg to a higher dose that might help eliminate or lessen the OCD....
Wow!! - After a couple of weeks - of increased dose on Prozac - All three of main OCD - "Disappeared - Literally - just vanished... Like someone turned off a "Switch in my brain" - That I was delighted is and understatement - every area of my life was vastly improved.
Here is a technical note regarding OCD medication that may help:
Since the 1970s, it has been known that drugs that affect a specific brain chemical -- serotonin -- are particularly helpful in OCD. These include a particular tricyclic antidepressant called clomipramine (Anafranil) and also the class of antidepressant drugs called selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors, or SSRIs. SSRIs approved by the FDA for treatment of OCD include Prozac, Zoloft, Luvox, and Paxil. Other SSRIs may also be used.
Another resource for help on OCD "Intrusive Thoughts: I just spoke to friend in the medical field - who recommended a book to her friends that were having this OCD "Intrusive Thoughts" = which are very insidious to your self-esteem and mental health because of the "Guilt and Shame" they bring
There are very few books, that I know of that deal specifically with OCD "Intrusive Thoughts" - but here it is:
Overcoming Obsessive Thoughts: How to Gain Control of Your OCD-David A. Clark , Christine Purdon
I haven't read the book personally, since I no longer have this OCD problem (thanks to Prozac), but it has received some high reviews:
The review points out a very important fact: Most importantly, the book focuses on the fact that the person is not sinful (religious obsessions) or (repugnant obsessions) for having these intrusive thoughts.
The following is a book review that I found:
By L. H. on June 3, 2007
My boyfriend was diagnosed with OCD a little less than a year ago. While I found many books on OCD, and several written for family/friends of those with OCD, these books mainly focused on "visible" obsessions and compulsions (checking, washing, cleaning, rituals, etc.), rather than intrusive and obsessive thoughts, which is what he primarily suffers from.
This book was an AMAZING find, as it focuses ONLY on obsessive thoughts, and does a fantastic job at it. While it does give an overview of what OCD is, it does so with the assumption that the person reading suspects that they might have unhealthy obsessive thoughts, and that they are not yet diagnosed with OCD.
There are entire chapters dedicated each to repugnant obsessions (themes of harm, violence, and sex) and to religious obsessions, which in other books are not explained in depth at all. The book also gives methods to overcome the obsessive thoughts which are challenging but doable, and explains why other methods of "stopping" thoughts are ineffective and actually cause OCD to persist.
Most importantly, the book focuses on the fact that the person is not sinful (religious obsessions) or [...](repugnant obsessions) for having these intrusive thoughts.
This booked helped me to understand what my boyfriend is going through a million times better than any other book on OCD he or I have read, and he agrees that the book is right on track. I would recommend this book to anyone who is, or is close to, someone who struggles with obsessive thoughts. I can't stress my satisfaction enough!
Hope this might help...
Kind of long, but just wanted to share
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