Redapples, not long ago I did have tools called: my dad, theraphy, my cat, walking, and always a tool to me, Anxietyzone
But then my dad gave up trying and calls every fear of mine "bull****", I was in theraphy which was a major help but then the school year ended and I'm on vacation... The only reason I still question the nature of my right hand is that it's just not feeling like a pinched nerve for my fingertips don't tingle but the other side of my fingers tingle, they just feel off, a weird feeling radiates down my fingers, and having my left hand tingle for a few years the tingling is just confined to my fingertips for my left hand but not my right hand, this is why I live in fear, because my left hand is just not feeling like a pinched nerve to me for just my thumb is infested withthe tingling and if I type my other fingers don't really tingle... My cat is a reasurence for having a cat makes my anxiety go to an all time low and what I can say about that is that my cat isn't here with me so it's odd to sleep alone without a purring cat kneeding into my shoulders and waking me up at the same time each and every day.
I'm going to try to take the medication at the night so that I actually get sleep for the slight headache and insomnia was annoying me and I had to take a nap. I really am sorry if you view me as a "reassurance" addict, but it's hard to be a teenager and to have anxiety topped with all the life struggles like good grades, and friendships. Health anxiety really does take a toll for it's really hard for me to eat, almost purgent which is hard for me for I'm going to get grounded if I don't eat... i really hate it , I guess it's easy to say I feel like a cat in a dogs body, it's not right and for that reason I don't feel right. I just guess I've given up trying to be strong and happy for others like my dad, he pats for not getting me meds or into theraphy big time, by me asking him the same thing each and every time.
I will try to be myself, mabye I just need a higher dose of meds, but if this dose is making me have a headache then i don't want to know what a higher dose will do to me, and not to mention insomnia
. My pointer finger and thumb now tingle on my right hand from typing and I feel that it's a pinched nerve, must be just a diffrent type or place like my elbow for it ONLY tingles when I'm typing...as for my left hand it always tingles. also if I shake my right hand the weird feeling radiates down my whole fingers for my right hand, and just my fingertips for my left hand... I just don't feel like a human right now, mostly because I literally live off of air, I find it hard to eat, but easy to drink lots of water... This may be part of the reason I feel un-human. I reallydon't know where to turn anymore and find that my world is once again my head is caving in. I just fear the weird tingling, like at the base of my thumb, a few places on my arm, I guess I just need a higher dose of medication and something to make my appetite come back, mabye with more food I'll feel more human but withthe medication my appetiteis zero.