I am struggling massively with health anxiety. I am 26 years old and since I turned 26 in February this year I have had an overwhelming fear of becoming ill and dying young. It was as if a light bulb just switched in my brain and I cant turn it off.
I am constantly worried that I have a serious illness, usually cancer and I can turn any sensation, feeling, pain in my body into that disease.
I am due to get married next July and all I can think of at the moment is 'what if I don't make it' what if I die before I get married'
These thoughts are massive and taking up nearly all of my day being preoccupied with them.
I lost my dad when he was 43 from a stomach ulcer that ruptured and my nan has recently undergone major surgery for an ovarian tumour (non-cancerous thank god).
I feel these may be my triggers - but I don't know for sure.
I have avoidance behaviour - I will not go to the doctors at all for anything, as I fear I will be told the worse (I had an ear infection, but had to be dragged to the docs by my partner to get anti-biotics as I just wouldn't go) and I avoid checking/looking at my body in case I find anything else to worry about more. I am now struggling to sleep and switch off.
I am studying for exams - that has gone to pot, my wedding plans are now a distant thought and only do anything when someone else brings it up.
As I am writing this I have a pain in my left armpit/breast which im convinced is cancer. I need help PLEASE! xx