I agree with Walnut.
Classic OCD. "If I don't do this (touch iron) then this will happen (I will lose my job)".
I've got OCD, too.
With meds and practice.... I'm down to checking things only before I go out...with no thought involved.
Example: I used to check stove, unplug all electronics, touch doors 7 times each and then with each one had the "if I don't, this will happen" attached.
Now, when I leave the house, sometimes I check the stove once, no longer unplug electronics, etc, .....and there is no "if I don't, this will happen" attached.
Walnut has great advice re: journaling.