it is a colossal mistake to ever seek reassurance from online doctor stuff. because any one of those worth his salt should tell you to go to your doctor. an online doctor would be foolish to tell anyone otherwise. this is because all the doc can go on is the subjective information from the person posting the question. and, frankly, people who post such questions are probably people more on the anxious side anyway.
with regard to you not being able to afford going to the doc, what can you do? well, and I am sure this is going to go over like a lead balloon
, you are going to have to get yourself out this and get back into doing things. All you are doing (and I know because I did it to myself) is paying attention to and looking for things to add to your list of aches and pains. You are massively freaking out over everything. this is what a hypochondriac does. and you are a ha peep.
I guarantee you that if you TRULY (and I mean TRULY) started getting yourself involved with something. Something that immersed you, then you would begin, OVER TIME, start to feel better. However the moment you start feeling badly for yourself, the moment you pay attention to symptoms, the moment you quit doing the proactive/helpful thing, then you are going to find yourself feeling like you are feeling right now.
I know, I know, you probably don't agree with my assessment and others here likely won't either. BUT, damn, kmj, you are so very much feeding into the fear. It is like you bought its favorite candy and you are just making BEASTY fat.
I do very much get you are scared and you don't want to think you have a brain tumor. However when are you going to get mad enough about how you are feeling to do something good for yourself? Cuz, honey, ruminating and looking at computer screen just isn't going to get you to feeling better.
I am sorry, I am sure you are going to think I am uncaring. but actually it is quite the opposite.