The only time I ever had health anxiety was after my first panic attack in 1997. Since that was my first one ever and out of no where I of course had to go by the symptoms to guess what was going on with me. The shakes feeling made me think it was a seizure. The pounding heart made me think it was heart attack. And I went to the dr and was checked out all over. EKG and all. After that experience I did not want to see a doctor ever again. I didn't even go back after 2 weeks to get on meds for it. So for months after the first attack, I thought I had a heart problem cause I always felt tightness in my chest. Or if I felt a pain in my head I would think it was a seizure but I didn't flip out Evey time. I would feel weird feelings in my chest like tingly feelings and I did check my heart beats daily lol with a stethoscope. but that all passed and that was the end of my health anxiety. Granted, I still had the occasional panic attacks now and then but I was ok. I got thru them.
But like I said, I never freaked out about anything after I was over my heart fear. Pains, headaches, anything was nothing to me. I see a lot of people here that have been this way forever.
I am here now, after all those years of not ever caring about my physical health, I only went to the dr if I had to. My last dr visit was in 2003 and feb of this year was when bang, I had the off balance feeling from a sinus infection to hit me and trigger the guessing game again. Stroke? Seizure? Did not even think of it being a brain tumor. I thought logical and said, it must be my ears. But it got worse since I was having to wait 4 long weeks to see my ddoctor. And that's when it all got worse. The off balance, the pressure in my forehead and eyes. I has had the same type of pressure in my head and eyes year ago but I surely did not think of it being anything as serious as a brain tumor. Infact I went to the dr for meds And in a week I felt so much relief. But this time around it's been terrible. The anxiety alone but cause I could not see my dr right away, I turned to google. And i have no idea what came up to think I had brain tumor. I think it was the pressure in my forehead that made me think it was a tumor putting pressure on my eyes and brain. Then the balance symptom really had my attention. Not to mention I was already bed bound cause of the imbalance. It was tough as heck and I felt like my hand was weak and couldn't grab things right. Sometimes I still feel that way. And I am still not fully better after being diagnosed last month with allergies and sinus problems. I went thru months of panic and anxiety attacks waiting to finally be diagnosed. And I don't have panic or full blown anxiety attacks anymore.
The synptoms I have now are pressure in my forehead, eyes, nose. Face. Sometimes dizziness feeling in my head. Nausea. Post nasal drip. No energy. Appetite is good some days and some days it's not. I get short of breath and feel like I can't get words out.
When I was trying to get back to walking after being in bed for several months, I walked and ran until my legs could not walk anymore. I got so exhausted and had anxiety just standing on my feet cause my body is so nervous from how I felt off balance. I would push myself thru the anxiety eveyday little by little but the more I pushed thru it the worse I felt. I would feel so spaced out. Get derealization from it. Feel dizzy headed. Drunk. Felt like I couldn't stand up or keep my balance which all lead me to believing afai and again I had a brain tumor.
I have had tons of people to tell me to go back to my doctor or admit myself in the hospital. But I do not do it. Most hypochondriacs would be running to the er or doctors office but I don't. I guess cause I am afraid of going on that they will find something they missed. I have thought about going just to make sure that my blood levels are ok and to talk to my doctor about my fear of a brain disease. But I don't do it. Then I feel like maybe if I don't go I could get worse. I'm ok hearing nursed say I need to se my dr again for help, but when I hear other people say it I freak out and think that there must be something wrong with me. Why is that? Anyone else like this?
I don't know what else they can do for me besides rule more things out. Not everything has been ruled out. I had blood work, ct scan of head without contrast even though I requested with contrast. Maybe I just need to be treated better for my allergies since that was my diagnosis.
I'm just rambling right now. And wondering if this is me being a hypochondriac or if I really should go see my dr again to talk to her about Eveything. My anxiety, my fear and just making sure that my blood is ok from bed rest. Or just try new allergy pill and see how I feel.
This is probably a stupid post. I'm just talking out my thoughts. :)