So totallyphobic, you're saying this weird foot and leg thing is from anxiety or sitting around on the couch so much... i can see that... i didn't take a bath yet to see if my foot heat flashes would go away. about theraphy I've been there in theraphy and my window of happiness is theraphy for then I have to go home to chores, homework, etc... Theraphy helped but the funny thing was that I always talked about people that pissed me off for me being pissed off, stressed out, sad, or otherwise unhappy seems to make me have anxiety. The only reason my parents are no help is that they have it stuck in their heads that my anxiety is hormonal, and guess what it's not for I FEAR symptoms that are anxiety produced, or if my brain tries to override my body like in this case of my anxiety being foul. Theraphy made me relize that possibly what brought on my anxiety was being so close to death myself and having a loved one die when I was at a young age... To tell you the truth my appetitie and stomach have been feeling off ever since I saw a picture of myself and my brother for we were preemies and the way we looked horrified me, for I wasn't white, I was blood red in color and very small. The other thing that has left me hating and angry every time I see a red head, this one in particular is my dad's ex for she lived with us for 11 years and I remember the screaming at me, fights between them, and blaming me for things that i wouldn't do at all like eat half a jalf a thing of cottage cheese... i hate cottage cheese so much!
I really think the hidden reason Ihave anxiety and a low snapping point for my anger is that they would yell at me and not at all take in my point of view, I would be left unspoken for when it came to views... heck I was trying to explain why I didn't take Benedryl and I said it was my anxiety for my dad told me to for aspider bite and tome anything that comes out of a normal persons mouth is BS for they're not in the medical feild, and guess what his girlfriend said to me? She said "Stop with the sob story" I could have punched out her teeth right there for she does not know at ALL and has NO right to day that to a person with severe sometimes to the point of self harm health anxiety and anger on general for the 99% that don't understand me. everyone on here is the 1% for we deal with this daily. I wish my anxiety would go away but it's years of supressed anger, stress, and to why it's health anxiety is the fact that I was so close to death and loosed a loved one, or two. I remember pne time I had a face condition, Bells Palsy if I remember correctly and that was the start of my hate and general anxiety... when the ex moved out and the new girlfriend moved in that was the window of time when this anxiety started... Becausebeing alone to sort my thoughts a lot of them still start with "I hate..." I want to kill..." Sorry for this long reply I hope you even remotely know where I'mcoming from, for at home since I'm around people or have to think of them coming home and the solid hatred I have towards them makes my anxiety never ending, it's a cycle to be repeated over and over again, people are the reason Igot this way with supressed hate, etc. As the problem childof the house I hated everybody and when I decided tobe nice these dark feelings followed. it's not hormonal, it's years of hatred, etc.