Yeah you're not a loser. Like me, you're unemployed and that's difficult, especially for people who have a high EQ. For whatever reason - we channel any/all anxiety into HA.
I was always ashamed (and still sometimes) about being a hypochondriac. But then something funny happened and changed my whole outlook.. And please don't laugh.. The movie 'Bandits'. Billy Bob Thortons character is a hypochondriac and at one point in the movie he tells a lady that basically he's ok with his condition because as he puts it "I would rather feel too much, than too little". Since then, I've learned to think about my depression, anxiety and whatnot much differently. We have big hearts, big imaginations, interesting stories.. We just channel all that power to HA and it become viscous. We just need to learn how to balance it. Having anxiety isn't necessarily a bad thing.