So ever since September I have been freaking out that I have lymphoma. I noticed a lymph node in my neck that I hadn't felt before when I was at the ER back in September. I mentioned it to her and she didn't seem worried and said come back if it is bigger or still there after about 2 months. WELL, I never ended up going back to her but have proceeded to going to my school doctor a million times. I got blood tests and they never seemed concerned. However, I was always upset after leaving and never feeling reassured. Always thinking that they aren't taking me seriously. I was always touching it and began to notice 2 others right next to it. They are still here 8 months later, but recently my worry is getting out of hand. I noticed some more on the right side of my neck too. I constantly take my temp. I have been feeling nauseous on and off for the past 4 months and have recently been having some digestive upset and abdominal pain. My neck and back have been aching, I read itchiness is a symptom too and my head and foot is always itchy. I am also scared about weight loss so everytime I go to the doc I freak out if I am a few pounds thinner. my anxiety has been pretty intense. I don't know what to do. It seems like I'll never feel better until I have tests like an ultrasound, catscan or biopsy but I don't want to have to get those either since I'm scared it could be cancer and doctors don't even want me to get those either because they don't think it's necessary and it will fuel my health anxiety. However, all these symptoms adding up are freaking me out! Any ideas?
Am I craZy here to think these things?