Okay, coming to the end of the second week on Vitamin K (klonopin). Dose of 1 mg. I think I'm feeling the evenness. There is very little anxiety, dread or depression. One good sign is that I'm excited about revising my novel again. That's always a good sign. Today, I swam with a friend, saw my old pal Leepika from the anxiety meetup group, and had a buddhist planning meeting at my house. I take .5 mg in the am and .5 in the pm.
Sometimes I walk down the street and the weather is so perfect, I can't even sense it. It's not hot, not cold, there's no breeze.
Maybe that's what recovery feels like. No anxiety, dread, or depression. You aren't even aware of those things.
Instead you walk through the world with your mind on bigger things. Things that are exciting and fun and just a little bit amazing.